A Cup of CassAng.

I know that I suck as a blogger lately. But at least it isn’t just this blog. Its all of my blogs. Tonight I have another Arbonne party. This one should be good since there at least 8 people coming. Krista and I are doing it together and will split it up somehow. Clint is going to be helping Allison’s husband, Scott, the next few days. He is starting a tire business and needs Clint’s help with a few things. This is good since Clint lost his summer job to the flood. So that leaves the girls and I to do house stuff. I have been kind of lax this week on really cleaning. We have been just keeping it above a disaster, ykwim? Today I am focusing on laundry because I have to. Tom has been gone every night this week. So that has been dragging me down. All I can do is live in the day, yk?

Haha, made you laugh.

So, I already said that I just want to craft and read today. That’s not an option, really. I’ve already finished the mag I started a couple days ago, started diaper laundry, posted on Knits, dressed and made up my face.

I had a great time with Deb yesterday. And it was nice to visit with Mama, as always.

We found a new yarn store, but it was closed when we got there, so we are planning to go back tomorrow.

As for the rest of the day:
school
stitching
reading
paid blogging
walk
Job 5

Also, I m considering seriously consolidating blogs again. I don’t know. I guess I feel like ….. keeping knits all about fun and musings more serious, that doesn’t present a true picture to either set of readers, ykwim? I am both funny and serious. I live a rich and varied life.

It …do my knits readers even realize that I had three grandparents die this year? Do they realize that I’ve been struggling in my marriage? No. They know I was not crafting and that I am again, but they don’t know why. If a blog is an auto-biography that you write while it’s happening…..

anyway, thoughts?

There are a couple things here I noted. First off, Eliphaz says, “If one attempts a word with you, will you become weary?”

And then, though no answer is given, he launches in to what becomes a pretty scathing diatribe against Job.

He begins by noting that Job has been pretty consistent in helping those who falter, edifying and building up those in need of comfort or assistance. Evidently, Job is well respected for wisdom as well as integrity. He is an example of right living, and it’s been noticed by those around him, not just by God. But then Eliphaz turns around and says that Job’s troubles must be his own fault, must be because he has done something wrong.

I”m interested to see what he adds in chapter 5, but I am going to hold off reading it, and just think on this lesson today:

How often are we like Eliphaz? When something bad happens to a brother or sister in Christ, we may jump to the conclusion that God must be trying to teach a lesson. There must be some hidden sin. Because, surely, God protects all those who serve Him from all bad things. Perhaps, we even go on our way feeling a little superior because we aren’t having any problems just this minute. Pastor like to say, “let me assure you, if you are not having any problems in your life, then you have just come through a problem or are about to have some.” We do this to ourselves, too,
when we are facing trouble. We assume like Eliphaz that trouble only comes as a result of sin, and so we must be doing something wrong. Maybe sometimes, but maybe not.

There are a couple of things here: sometimes bad stuff happens just because we live in a fallen world. We are told in the epistles that the earth itself groans because of the ramifications of the fall. Life sometimes sucks just because life sucks. The other thing touches on what we discussed yesterday–perhaps God really is protecting us from something much worse. For example, when Drama was so little, and she stopped eating, so I had to take her to the emergency room, right? And they were ready to release us when she stopped breathing? Her not eating, was in reality a good thing, because what if I had put that baby to bed?

We made it through yesterday, LOL! Hopefully I can get through today with a little more grace and a few fewer fits. And I am practically certain that tomorrow it will be easier yet to do so. Speaking of tomorrow, that is the day I am going to see Deb in North Myrtle Beach.

Let’s see … I’ve got muffins in the oven, and they’ve already been complained about. Does that make you angry? It does me. Because, it’s not like I don’t have other stuff to do than get up and fix breakfast, yk? And life is NOT about pre-sweetened cereal!

Today’s docket:
a good tidy on the house
clean my room
clean my bathroom
Job 4
school
read a mag
work on my bag
blog on main blogs
paid blogging

Also, I am hot already.

I guess that knowing that God is sitting with you is enough. Or it should be. It was for Job. He cursed the day of his birth. He cursed the night of his conception. But he did not curse God. I don’t know maybe it wasn’t enough. I guess I need to put more thought into that. But he still held God above all of the misery in his life. And he was mad at God for hedging him in so he couldn’t die! That is powerful. Instead of seeing that God was protecting him from dying, he was thought he was keeping him in misery. And yet, still he did not curse God. I wonder how many times we have been in such a place and cursed God for it. It is just like our kids….they get mad and call us mean or worse when we keep them in a safe place and don’t allow them to do what they want. Gosh, Cass, we are only just children pretending to be adults! Job was steadfast in his faith despite his frustration with God. I think that his example will serve me well the next time I am frustrated with the path that God has put me on. And if it doesn’t….remind me!

the sound of my voice causes bladder spasms. Seriously. I ask someone to get up and do thier chore, and I get “hold on, I have to pee.” Umm, so you have been sitting there in pain and holding it all this time?

So. I kinda don’t know what to do with myself. Dh is taking the week off, which means he is home. it’s going to be difficult to go about my normal routine with that being the case, and so I don’t know whether to try to do school and all, or just let the fam hang out and enjoy each other, yk? Decisions, decisions.

I have already done a bit of paid blogging today, and now I am (d’uh) blogging here. I still want to :

blog on my main blogs
decide on school
shower
clean my bathroom
work on my little bag
read Job 3
clean my desk before it gets bad
read a mag

It is already 87 degrees here, and only 10:30 am. The high was supposed to be 85. I am ready for a nap.

Am I the only one who reads the voice of Satan in a sassy nasal whine?

And do you see in verse 9, how his wife says for Jb to just “curse God and die”? I always read that kind of sarcastic, too, but I then I pause and think ….. that’s vinegar to the bones, just like in Proverbs. She wasn’t taking the long range view. She didn’t try to build up, only to get a let up. She was a discourager and not an encourager. She was like we all can be if we aren’t careful.

And then, in 13: they just sat. That verse used to just confuse me. And then I had occasions of grief so great that simply knowing there were other people breathing air helped me. And you walked through some of that with me, and I was comforted just knowing that you knew my grief. There is power in that. Grief shared really is grief divided.

I think. I am not sure that I am glad it is Friday. That just means one more day to butchering day. I have a love-hate relationship with that day. Love being done with those stinky birds but hate the long day of work it takes. So today we are really cleaning the house in preparation for tomorrow. My list is probably long…

Laundry-Wash, Fold, Put Away
Clean House-Living Room, Dining Room, Kitchen, Bathrooms, Back Room, Hall/Steps/Landing
Clean Out Freezer
Clean Out Fridge
Make Egg Salad
Sharpen Knives
Call Tom About Ice And Hatchet
Call Allison About Plastic Cups
Gather Buckets For Entrails
Get Down Large Stock Pot
Wash Up Coolers

I am sure there is more that I will discover along the way today.

Woohoo, it’s Friday. My weekend is promising much busy-ness though, so I guess I am not as excited as all that. Today, I have roughly the same goals as yesterday:

Blog on my main blogs and here
Paid Blogging
Clean off the top of the dryer (that’s the next area after the freezer)
Even up the sidebars here (we need to talk about this)
Start the 101 list
Read Job 2 and post about it
School
Read a bit
Stitch a bit

Also, dh will be home since he can’t drive, and trying to figure out what to do about the van, so I will be a beck and call girl today. If he is particularly (needy is not the right word) (engaging??) most of this other stuff may slide.

Lord, I thank you for this day. And for my friend, who pulls confessions from me before I have finished my first cup of coffee. How in the world do we read each other so well from so far away?? Only through You! I thank You for my husband. Lord, he’s not his normal self, and I know he has a lot on his mind. And I know that he doesn’t turn to You when he gets overwhelmed, so I really don’t know what or how to pray for him. I guess I just say … Lord, whatever he needs, please supply, and You know what that is. Help me to be a help meet for him.
In Jesus name,
Amen